おはよ。。。
お疲れ。
あまり元気ではありません。。。
期待して失望して でも期待を捨てきれなくて結局失望して 絶望を感じる。
しかし、今私は英語で書くつもりだ。私の日本語は本当に良いではないからです。
Hi :3
I just realized that being vegetarian isn't easy when your whole family loves meat. I don't really know why I think about it at 01:30 am... But whatever. I've got a headache. So bad headache that I can't even fall asleep and I already took too much painkillers to take some more. I think I'm gonna stay home tomorrow... Or today, because it is already "today" not "tomorrow". I don't want to sleep at the lesson again... T-T And I'm sure that this headache gonna last till tomorrow. Only thing I have to do is to talk with my Monika - my sister... Because I can't call to my college. I just can't talk with people... I don't really know why. I know that I'm shy but it isn't the real reason. I think it is because of my anti-socialite. And maybe because of my fucking bad English... Yeah, it hurt so much. I mean to live in the other country. It doesn't matter how hard I try I can't speak in English really well... And I can't become acclimatized to this country... I don't know why. Seriously.
It is really tiring to look at the window and seeing this grey, wet and cold weather. We've got sun sometimes but... In Poland was way better. But actually I like to live in England because I hate Polish people (yaay, I hate myself XD).
But seriously, most of Polish people are rubbish... They are so stupid, jealous, intolerant and aggressive. I'm happy that there are also normal people... And actually idiots are everywhere, but why in my country have to be so much of them?
Ehh... Never-mind, I'm not gonna complain that much in my first post ^^
I supposed to work at my homework's but I'm not in mood. (yeah sure, perfect reason... So stupid reason... Ehh...) But seriously, I just can't think about art when I think about all the things what happened like two days ago... ._. I feel a bit trapped... I don't really know how it happened, and even that I'm happy but this is really really weird feeling. I can't explain it... But I doesn't feel free, like someone own me. Yes, I know, Hikari own me... But it isn't because of that... I think I should go to psychiatrist. XD""
^^ I tried to play ginger by Exist+Trace on bass once again today and... I did it :3 I'm so proud of myself because my girlfriend is big fan of Exist+Trace and she was so happy when I played it for her <3
Haha, this is my trying to look like Naoto. It was only for my love because she wanted me to do it. XD" It was fail but she said that she like it and actually she was so happy becuase of it so I'm happy too. I really love to see smile on her face <3 she is so cute when she's smiling.
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さようなら
公子は光を愛して＜３
